Difficult Roads Often Lead To Beautiful Destinations.

The saying goes, “as one door closes, another door opens.” More often than not, we are blind to the door that is opening because we are so focussed on the door that has closed. Negativity seems to be an emotion that comes much more naturally than positivity.

2016 was a challenging year for me, personally. I made the decision to walk away from various people who had been a significant part of my life over the years. Those decisions were not made lightly; I spent many hours swaying to and fro, once I had taken that step there was no turning back. However, I have never once doubted any of my decisions. The reason being…

They had simply run their course. We are forever changing and growing, with those around us having a much larger impact than what we sometimes realise. With this in mind, I believe those people had taught me everything that they could and the chemistry that once was, was no longer. Selfish? Yes. Completely. But I want the relationships in my life to continuously excite me and challenge me as an individual, and I was simply going through the motions.

Now? I feel free.

I have since met many new people; people who do excite and challenge me, and have opened my eyes and pushed me to experience things I had only ever imagined. Since stepping out of my comfort zone, I have become a better me; more confident, headstrong and aware of what I want.

The point I am wanting to share here is to see the positive in any situation. Sometimes we have control, at other times we don’t but the clock won’t stop ticking either way. The bad situations have to happen for us to appreciate the good and become the people we want to be.

Happy New Year.


Fitness Update.

At the beginning of the year, I published a post titled ‘New Year, New Me’ where I discussed my high blood pressure diagnosis and the incentive this gave me to lead a healthier lifestyle through exercise and my diet.

Throughout the whole of school and university I was active through the hockey and netball team, and later kickboxing. I don’t really know at what point my enthusiasm dwindled because I have always enjoyed working out, as well as using it as an escape from day-to-day life. I am, however, pleased to say that the changes I wanted have been implemented, and that enthusiasm has returned, for the most part.

imageBoxing is one of my favourite ways to work out, as it not only for building upper body strength but it is a great way to let off steam

If am to be honest, I seem to manage a few weeks where I show complete commitment to a fitness programme before indulging one week and then struggling to get back into the swing of it. I was going to the gym three times a week, attending a military style boot camp twice a week and yoga once a week. I have recently decided to give the Kayla Itsines Bikini Body Guide (BBG) a go to give my workouts more structure and keeping me on track.

imageThe small changes are what matter the most because there will always be room for improvement. Baby abs in tow.

imageI think glute and leg workouts are the easiest because I can do squats, lunges and donkey kicks in the comfort of my own home.

There is obviously still a long journey ahead but I am feeling much healthier, both mentally and physically, and it has been great to see the small changes to my body especially when I am consistent. My main goal was to strengthen my heart through cardio training, which I have worked towards. I now want to incorporate more resistance and weight training to tone up.


I understand this a rather generic update to my fitness, but I hope that I will have more of a presence on my blog and will provide detailed weekly updates, including photos of my workouts and meals.

Never Underestimate The Power Of Red Lipstick & High Heels.

I am not even going to bother apologising for my lack of regular updates because it’s bound to happen again! But I am back to share some images from a photoshoot I did last weekend. Exciting!

I have been really enjoying the modelling experience, and I am fortunate to be working with a fantastic photographer, Janine Kelly Fiddes, who has an artistic eye. Check out her Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/JanineFiddesPhotography/

I never intended on working in front of the camera, but instead assisting Janine with the makeup for the models she was working with. It turns out that Janine and I function on similar wavelengths and work well as a team; we come up with so many themes for different shoots then just ‘go with the flow’ on the day, improvising many of the shots based on set.

Our most recent shoot was a originally a 1950s inspired shoot, where your stereotypical housewife takes on the role of her husband. Through this, I recreated the sharp winged liner and bold red lips that were on trend in the Fifties.


However, many of the photos created a 1940s war-time vibe, which I personally prefer to the original idea. I think this is due to the fact Janine and I have come to realise that I produce much better ‘serious’ photos when they are staged; the playful and fun photos are captured when I am messing around and this set / location didn’t offer capability to do so.

That being said, I actually think this has been my favourite shoot we have done together so far. I adore the editing and direction that Janine has taken with these photos.




We do have some more shoots planned over the next couple of weeks, including the Seven Deadly Sins and the Elements; both of which she is hoping to focus on over-the-top editorial makeup so I am very excited! Keep your eyes peeled for my next update!



Fun At The Fair.

Well it certainly has been a hot minute since I last posted; there has been so much going on in my life over the last few months, and a lot of changes – for the better. However, that is not what this post is about (I’m hoping to discuss all that at a later date) – a friend of mine has recently taken up photography and is slowly trying to build a portfolio so we have been working together to create some diversity in her images.

We were researching some ideas / themes for photoshoots and became inspired by Twiggy, best remembered as one of the first international supermodels and a fashion icon of the swinging sixties. We thought it would be fun to do an outdoor shoot recreating a look from this era, especially as there was fair going on in town.

I went for a simple black and white sixties’ dress to contrast the colours of the fair, which worked well!


I attempted to recreate the androgynlous look that Twiggy became renowned for during the sixties. Unfortunately I do not have the cropped haircut that she did so I pulled it back to create a similar effect as the cropped style.


The makeup for this shoot was by far my favourite part to this look, with a statement colour on my eyelids. Cut creases were popular in the sixties, so that was what used for this look – I had never even attempted a cut crease before but I don’t think it was bad for a first attempt!


This was a new experience for me, as I have never done an outdoor shoot before but I absolutely loved it. I had a lot of fun! People were glancing over at what we were doing but I was so engrossed that I wasn’t phased by the by-passers! It’s just amazing to become someone else, to create a moment that upon the press of a button will freeze and last forever.

New Year, New Me.

Happy New Year!

I can’t believe that it is 2016, already! It doesn’t seem like yesterday that I was writing a post similar to this last year.

In that post, I discussed new year’s resolutions and that I am not a firm believer in making them because if I want to change / better myself then I can make that happen at any point; why only at the start of each new year?

With that having been said, I do need to make some changes in my life, for the better. Now I know what many will think when I say what the changes are, “How original!” Obviously, in a rather sarcastic manner. Let me explain…

I was diagnosed with blood pressure, just a little over eighteen months ago, at the age of twenty-one. I am of a healthy weight, healthy cholesterol levels and no family history of high blood pressure. I have spent many hours at medical appointments for examinations and regular testing, but unfortunately the cause of high blood pressure is difficult to locate. I do take medication daily to aid the condition, but I need to be doing more to make sure that I am as healthy as can be both inside and out.

Exercise and diet are the aspects of my life that I want to target. I won’t lie, my exercise levels are currently nil unless you classify walking to the kitchen to get food. I will initially focus on cardiovascular exercises, to strengthen my heart. In terms of diet, I usually eat what I want when I want and that has to stop. My salt intake needs to be minimal. I would like to start incorporating more vegetarian dishes into my diet.

I have known that I need to make these changes for some time now, but never got round to it. Why will this be different? I think that each time before I wanted to make these changes to benefit the way I look, whereas now I know I need to make them for my health. We only have one life, one body we should do all that we can to look after it.

What changes are you aiming to make this year?


Let’s Talk: 12 Months On.

It has been just shy of twelve months since I graduated from university, so I thought now was a good time to sit down and update you as to where I am and what I am currently doing.

I currently work in media, as the Deputy Editor of a community magazine – complete career shift from what I studied at university – but my degree was varied with content that when I left university I did not know what route I wanted to take within Forensic Science. Having the opportunity to explore a different line of work has been both rewarding and challenging, but above all it has helped me to realise the pathway I would like to pursue within Forensic Science.

I am now currently in the process of researching different universities and the different postgraduate Drugs & Toxicology courses they offer so I can make an informed decision to what would best suit me, ready to start next September.


I live in the beautiful City of Paderborn, Germany

Many students leave university knowing what their next steps are, others like me don’t. However, I did always know that I needed a break from education and Forensic Science so I moved back home with my parents and applied for work. My original employment was as an administrative clerk; it was only maternity cover but it was work nevertheless. This was an opportunity to start earning whilst I searched for something more permanent.

I also took on a part-time role as a youth worker, to keep me busy and earn a little more extra dollar. In addition to figuring out my next steps, I moved back home to save money because the cost of living is much lower. I am already in enough debt from my first three years at university, so I want to avoid having to borrow money to undertake a postgraduate. But making that commitment to a second job means in addition to saving, I have the disposable income to enjoy the finer things in life. I plan to stay exactly where I am until September 2016, when I will be relocating from Germany back to the UK regardless of whether I have a place at university, because my dad will be leaving the British Army in May 2017 – his time will be up. I want to be settled before my parents make the move.



I take the opportunity to travel whilst living in Europe

Anyway, the purpose of this post was not to discuss what I am able or unable to afford but just to demonstrate that all our paths are going to be different. It is important that the decisions you make are going to positively impact and benefit you. It is not just about the destination, but also the journey.

Autumn Lip Essentials.

Is anyone else as excited about Autumn as I am? Following on from my last post, I wanted to share my go-to lip products for this season. I am definitely channelling the dark ‘vampy’ lips that are on trend.

Lip Pencils


MAC Lip Pencil – Currant

Currant is part of the permanent line of normal lip pencils by MAC. It appears almost black when just looking at the pencil, but comes off as deep red-based purple that can be used with variety of deep reds and purples. I think this is going to be a staple even into the winter months.

MAC Pro Longwear Lip Pencil – Rebellious

I purchased Rebellious as part of the Vamplify collection that was released by MAC, I am unsure if it is part of their permanent collection. I usually try to avoid products that are released as part of collections, in case they are limited edition, but I couldn’t resist. This is similar in colour to the MAC Rebel lipstick – a burgundy plum – and they feel like a match made in heaven!




MAC Satin Finish Lipstick – Rebel

The colour of Rebel in the packaging is deceiving as it makes it look much darker than it actually is, it applies much lighter. As mentioned, it is similar to the MAC Rebellious lip pencil but Rebel has more pink undertones. It is a satin finish which means it has the staying power of a matte lipstick, with added moisture – just what we need in the cold months. MAC Rebel is a cult classic, and a colour that should be in all makeup bags this season.